Thursday, March 06, 2008
Too much thinking?
The moment I stepped into the hall, where people were seated immersed in a completely different atmosphere, it felt as if my thoughts had collided with a wall of quietness. Everyone was chilled out, in a good mood, and quite relaxed. More importantly, there was a "silent space" around, which highlighted to me the speed of my thinking. And, just as a giant wave eventually calms down, this silence started to ease my thinking, until my mind was finally almost still. They were meditating. And that meditation was like medication for my mind - suddenly there it was: my week, my many thoughts, now dissolved like a small spray absorbed by the sand.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
love in action
It’s so special to see love in action. I love to witness the moments when people show their greatness in everyday life. I live in London, and the other day I was on the bus in the morning going to my meditation class. It was a cold morning in February, and an old man went to get on the bus, his bus pass didn’t work properly (it lets out an odd bleeping sound – which means you don’t have any money on the pass, it was bleeping and everyone could hear it). The bus driver tried to tell the old man that was hard of hearing that his pass didn’t work, the old man didn’t really get it but he knew something was wrong and so innocently and quietly went to get off the bus. My heart went out to the old man at that moment, seeing his frailty and vulnerability. The bus driver called him back, and said, it’s OK Come, come. It was only 6.20 in the morning and I’d already seen love and greatness in action. As I got off the bus, the friend that I was travelling with also noticed it and commented on the bus driver and his ability to discriminate, how he was so clear at that moment what was the right. It could sound a minor thing, but the reality is actions like this stand out like pure gold.Friday, February 29, 2008
My Story
It has got me thinking as we all like to tell stories☺ I have some wonderful stories☺ but where do they take me…and you?
Letting go of telling these kind of ‘stories’ will enable me to be humble…just yesterday I heard that if you want to practice humility…speak less and let someone else be in the limelight…when speaking to another practice these two words ‘you’re right’…it’s a bit like just saying ‘yes’ instead of coming into unnecessary debate or disagreeing with the person before they’ve even started to explain. Which links into something else that I’ve been thinking about…if you want to serve at a time of need then put your opinions about others/a situation to one side.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Moral of the story 1
故事:
有一个人,经常与邻居发生争执,彼此之间嫌恶。有一天,这个人的牛丢失了,于是便怀疑是邻居偷了。他左想右想,越看邻居越像是偷牛的人。过了几天,牛居然自己跑回来了。于是他再看那位邻居,样子好像又不是偷牛的人了。
Story 1:
There were two neighbours who constantly fight and argue and this created negative feelings for one another. One day, one of the neighbour lost his cow. He instantly cast his suspicion on his neighbour whom he fought a lot. He pondered over this and the more he observed his neighbour, the more he saw the neighbour as a 'cow-thief'. A few days later, unexpectedly his cow returned home to him. After this incident, whenever he observed his neighbour, he begun to see his neighbour less of a 'cow-thief'.
寓意:
你也许从来没有丢失过牛,更没有偷过牛,但是,这个故事却告诉你两件非常重要的事:
第一,作为人,绝对不能心有成见。当你假设一个人会偷牛,越看他就越像偷牛的人,直到有一天牛回来了,他的嫌疑才会被洗清。
第二,不幸的是,在我们的一生中,常常会被人冤枉成为偷牛的人,但牛又永远不会自己回来,所有,就有可能一辈子会被人视为偷牛贼。
因此,每个人对自己都要有信心。如果你不是偷牛贼,即使别人硬说你是偷牛的,也不应该影响自己对整个世界的认识。
Moral of the story:
You probably never lost or stolen a cow before. However, this story is to remind us of two things in life i.e:
- Never pass judgement about people. We see what we want to believe. If we want to see someone as a 'cow-thief', unless the cow return, we'll always see them as a 'cow-thief'.
- During our lifespan, there might be times when we ourselves are judged as the 'cow-thief' by others and the cow might never return to prove our innocence. Therefore, develop such faith and trust in ourselves that as long as I didn't steal the cow, even if someone falsely accused me of stealing the cow, I'm not going to change my stand (i.e. principle/value).
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Every little counts...
Anyway, we met up last month for a cup of coffee and tried to compress our life story of the past 10 years in an hour. He shared news of his wife and his cute little son. During our conversation, he asked me whether I knew why he still remembered me after such a long time and I answered no. He went on to explain that I was the only one who called him and his wife when they left the UK for his home country and that left an impression on him. Funny thing is, on my side I had no recollection of this - I don't remember no phone calls or bidding them farewell before they left.
When thinking about this later on, I was amazed how something so small left such impact on him. So, our every little gesture - no matter how small they are will always leave an imprint in people's heart. One sincere act or thought goes a long way - it might even change the course of someone's life forever.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Hey ME, talk to ME!
' I made a mistake and my conscience was really going for it, biting me hard! So I spoke to someone whose advice I trust and after listening to her take on the event I was clear in my head and I could completely forgive myself. But oh boy, the next day I heard this critical voice in my head and I started to feel guillty again. Hang on a minute I said, I was feeling okay, where is this voice coming from?
So in meditation
I said: Hey voice, can you personify yourself so that I can dialogue with you?
An image appeared in my mind's eye. An image with a pointing finger.
I asked: Why do you exist?
It replied: To point the finger at you
I said: Why?
It said: Because you make mistakes
Me: Why do I make mistakes?
It: Because you don't trust yourself
Me: Why?
It: Because you are not in your truth
Wow! I said, what a useful piece of information on the journey of knowing myself!
Who else would be able to give you such a clear info about yourself? Nobody but your own self. I rarely do this 'talking to myself' business but I tried this and it is quite powerful. Suddenly you have a feeling of care and love for yourself 'from yourself '- a source which you can let the taps open as long as you want. All is in your hands. No need to rely on anyone! I like it!
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Angel quotes
- How do the angels get to sleep when the devil leaves the porch light on? ~Tom Waits, "Mr Siegal," Heartattack and Vine
- Anyone can be an angel. ~Author Unknown
- A baby is an angel whose wings decrease as his legs increase. ~Author Unknown
- If you can't hear the angels, try quieting the static of worry. ~Valentine Sterling
- Angels are messengers, but sometimes we misunderstand their language. ~Linda Solegato
- You'll meet more angels on a winding path than on a straight one. ~Daisey Verlaef
- I'm no angel, but I've spread my wings a bit. ~Mae West
- If a man is not rising upwards to be an angel, depend upon it, he is sinking downwards to be a devil. ~Samuel Taylor Coleridge
- If we were all like angels, the world would be a heavenly place. ~Author Unknown
- In Heaven an angel is nobody in particular. ~George Bernard Shaw
- I feel that there is an angel inside me whom I am constantly shocking. ~Jean Cocteau
- Philosophy will clip an angel's wings. ~John Keats
- Never drive faster than your angel can fly. ~Author Unknown
Monday, January 07, 2008
Monday Spiritual Joke #30
The group surrounded a dog. Concerned lest the boys were hurting the dog, he went over and asked "What are you doing with that dog?"
One of the boys replied, "This dog is just an old neighborhood stray. We all want him, but only one of us can take him home. So we've decided that whichever one of us can tell the biggest lie will get to keep the dog."
Of course, the reverend was taken aback. "You boys shouldn't be having a contest telling lies!" he exclaimed. He then launched into a ten minute sermon against lying, beginning, "Don't you boys know it's a sin to lie," and ending with, "Why, when I was your age, I never told a lie."
There was dead silence for about a minute. Just as the reverend was beginning to think he'd gotten through to them, the smallest boy gave a deep sigh and said, "All right, give him the dog."
Monday Spiritual Joke #29
Moses pulled up to the tee and drove a long one. The ball landed in the fairway, but kept rolling directly toward a water hazard. Moses quickly raised his club, the water parted and the ball rolled to the other side, safe and sound.
Next, Jesus strolled up to the tee and hit a nice long drive directly toward the same water hazard. It landed right in the center of the pond and kind of hovered over the water. Jesus casually walked out on the pond and chipped the ball back onto the green.
The third guy got up and sort of randomly whacked the ball. It headed out over the fence and into oncoming traffic on a nearby street. It bounced off a truck and veered toward a nearby tree.
From there, the ball bounced onto the roof of a shack close by and rolled down into the gutter, down the drainspout, out onto the fairway and straight toward the aforementioned pond. On the way to the pond, the ball hit a little stone and bounced out over the water onto a lily pad, where it rested quietly.
Suddenly a very large bullfrog jumped up on the lily pad and snatched the ball into his mouth. Just then, an eagle swooped down and grabbed the frog and flew away. As they passed over the green, the frog screamed with fright and dropped the ball, which bounced right into the cup for a hole in one.
Moses turned to Jesus and said, "I hate playing with your Dad."
Thursday, January 03, 2008
New Year Resolutions vs The Hoodies
Just got back to work after being on a little retreat. A retreat for a meditator is the best holiday you can give them, it was an opportunity to go deeper into the self and to emerge more positivity, to see what's really in there and to enjoy the beauty, but you can't stay on a retreat that's not real life. It's full of power to really get those positive inner cycles spinning, get the determination in place because...... when we get back to work guess what happens, we go into an atmosphere that empowers negativity ("The Hoodies", worries, attachments, desires all of that stuff that is just buzzing in the atmosphere its as if it's magnetic and pulls you, especially if you have been a regular contributor as it's all lined up with your energy, ready to pull you back!)
OK so New Years Resolutions lets get them up here, the Hoodies aint gonna beat me, are they gonna beat you?
To take more "delight" in my attitude and my own awareness of my chosen state of being - happy, peaceful and loveful in relationship in my mind with what is a sticky word for some G-O-D, so I'll call him "my abundant companion the source of peace love and happiness" (so my mind stays absorbed in being happy and enthused all the time instead of happy and enthused about what's going on externally and all the ego of it, because when the chips are down, I'll go down! And to be honest I find it can be a bit too repetitive dull and boring without an injection of real happiness. This is when I feel at my best and it in that allows my mind to stay free.
To stop getting caught up in stuff I don't need to as it's a waste of energy and pulls me away from the energy I want to be with (that controlling things outside - it's all part of that). This is a big project just to recognise the stuff (like a whole bunch of additictions) then I need to keep applying a full stop in my mind and stepping back with a firm "No, that's the past."
To really, really go for creating and linking in with only positive thoughts - realisations to deepen are that I have everything inside me, so don't have to worry about anything. Then to get sewing and reaping, sewing and reaping to smooth over those negative cycles of worry, concern, subtle tension about stuff - it's only a habit! A fear of loosing, I have nothing to loose so my challenge this year is to apply that full stop to it so I can remain free from the Hoodies!
Choose do everything with love, because that's when I feel at my best
Choose to say Yes to change, to "Be" so I am free to "Do" more! It's all about what I sew I reap, and I want to realise this more and more so I reap the good stuff only!
Choose to make time to revise my notes more after my morning meditation class, this is one of the most beautiful parts of my day, so to really extract the butter will be the most nourishing thing I could possibly do for myself.
Choose to give this particular attention to what I am thinking in the evening, to make it powerful. I know what I can be like and I don't know if you have noticed for yourself if you meditate but those Hoodies come out in the evening so it's a time to create light and spread it so they all run away!
And finally!
To stop and revisit my aim again and again, during the day!
To stay on track got to keep a check:
What direction am I moving in? Is it positive, umlimited? If not...
Change direction to that of delight, aligned to my best and to my abundant friend and to the wonderful vision I know I am seen in and want to create for myself and everyone else, to create magnificent thoughts.
Ultimately I want to sparkle from inside out and to experience a lot, lot, lot of happiness that doesn't have any limits!!!!
2008 has a beautiful ring to it doesn't it!
To all the Hoodies out there, nothing personal it's an anaology for the dark side of ones character (Got the Hood up so can't see!)
Friday, December 07, 2007
Free to be!
Have you ever found yourself, not listening properly to someone, or listening in such a way you put words in their mouth and finish off their sentances. I suppose the extension of this is where we try and control the way others go about doing something: Don't put that there put it here! ...... Don't do it that, do it like this....
I was reflecting in moments like that we cannot live our own uniqueness or let others live their's - we're too caught up with what's happening trying to control, for numerous reasons and often to do with fear of loosing something or just trying to be perfect. So today, I had to check myself and see am I enjoying being in this moment, being in my own space, in my own feelings and making that really special, positive and peaceful and powerful? Try it while your on the phone it's so enrichening, just letting yourself just be. Today I noticed in each of the interactions that I gave myself this special inner attention to, that I had such a laugh with the other person in a really natural way. I was really myself and I also felt like they were really themselves. It's so nice not to be provoking anything from any space of force, and just being with another. It felt very innocent and clean - incredibly special!
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Breathe. Easy.
Recently, our Teacher at meditation class was telling us about the natural reservoirs of peace, love and joy all human beings have deep within them, and it struck me that there may be a small problem with this simple breathing exercise I and many others take for granted.
In a world filled with anger, tension and frustration, it occurred to me that we may be adding to these with each breath, if all we ever do is exhale these into the environment around us.
Yet, every breath we make is as beneficial to our world as the breath we take from the air around us. We breathe in oxygen, produced by plants as a by-product of their natural cycle, and we breathe out carbon dioxide, which plants use to make sugars for their own growth, and oxygen for us!
So, if I physically benefit my world with every breath, what if I could do it spiritually too? What if I could breathe in the world about me, then breathe out the peace and joy I have within me? What if we all did the same?
I have a new relaxation technique now: take a deep breath, and breathe out your peace. See how it works for you.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Ever had the thought that you are a walking tape recorder?

I’ve been entertaining this for sometime and it was really interesting that my morning meditation class took up this subject. Wanted to get it out there as I feel it is a ticket to freedom and a way of creating a life that we want to live.
It’s interesting to ponder on this, not just to ponder but to live by it. I do and will continue to. At every moment, even while you are reading this, you are recording every single thought and feeling in your mind, depending on the quality of your thoughts you could be experiencing the good, the bad and the ugly! Your experience creates an impression in your mind, that becomes your life. And like any old impression that’s made the first or the last, you will come back to it in given a similar set of circumstances. We have probably had similar thoughts and feelings millions of times before it’s a bit like being on auto pilot.
The ticket – when I realise that I am the one who is creating the recordings through the way I think and feel I am in a position of influence and power, (I can choose my responses, my life). All of the past recordings will try and get in the way. This is where the meditation comes in – I need to come back to experiencing my inner qualities (the peace, love and happiness – we all have it, even if we don’t feel like we do, it will just that the other tapes are playing and creating a lot of noise.) The trick is, as you enter each moment to step back from it and become aware of the new recording you are making (now you are in control). The more light and easy and good you feel (from deep within, not just because life is going well, that's where you being influenced by the old recordings) the more lovely your life will be, the more trusting of you will become of yourself. I've noticed the process get’s more and more subtle.
Whatever I wrote will be effective if you can answer how you use the following buttons to access your potential: Pause, Play, Record, Rewind, Fast Forward – have fun.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
It’s all about context, transformation made easy!
Recently I went on a retreat in India. It was such a “treat”, to be immersed in classes about spirituality, to practise meditation in a place that is like a launch pad for the soul. Since I have come back I have been reflecting on my own spiritual development and how to move forward with ease, I have always liked the easy life! I’ve noticed as I pass through old habits I often see how attached or even how I am addicted to these old patterns of behaviour. As the saying goes old habits die hard! I’m questioning this; does it have to be this way?It could be said that a path of self transformation is natural, you cannot transform into anything that you do not have the potential to be. Just as a caterpillar will be a butterfly, an acorn into a Oak Tree. I believe we all have the potential to be our best, it’s natural. Getting there - that’s where the mastery lies.
The place I went to has an incredibly pure atmosphere, it’s a bit like a mirror when you are there – you see what is happening inside you, (if you are willing to look) very clearly, as if it has been magnified – which is great if you are feeling good and very interesting if you are feeling otherwise.
The way it became easier to look at was accepting the context of my own situation, and the interesting thing is the same applies when I look at others and how I see them and relate to them. I had to accept I have been going through life, just like most people, taking from external circumstances, moving along with expectations, this should be like this, they should be….Out of touch with my own inner happiness, and that’s understandable – because I thought it was dependent on the things external to me. I didn’t realise that it was inside me; it’s only since I have been doing meditation that I have really become aware of this (around 6 years now). Now I have set the context, their’s an observation I would like to share. If I hold the awareness that my mind has become like a computer and it automatically switches into old habitual responses and behaves in a certain way and it’s been doing that for around for a very, very long time – even beyond this birth (that’s if you consider reincarnation as a possibility). Well just like any old habit – it takes time to change, you just have to keep reminding yourself to do it and not feel bad when you don’t change immediately, quite the contrary, I found if I see this in context of 100’s of years, I can start to give myself a break – no need to feel guilty, just get on with it. And transformation will then become easy. I really found this useful to work with for myself and also being light when being in relationship with everyone else. Whether we are aware of being on a path of personal growth or not, we are all in the same boat and so it’s interesting when we become aware of each others idiosyncrasies, and the context of this - life has shaped each one through time and what those circumstances have been – God knows! It’s as if each become a “Picasso” of life, from a perfectly sculptured, mini god like, fully blown life sized sculpture – you might have a sculpture in mind, Michael Angelo came to mind. It’s good to see it all in context. Pressure off – creativity and understanding switches on!
First blog
I thought of starting off in a different way. Actually - I am The God of plagiarism, so this is not my idea - nicked from a great site (can't mention it).
This is one of the many great views in London. There's that feeling of standing back and looking through the eyes, through the windows of the soul and into the world. A slight trace of being disengaged from what's around you - and for me it's in that moment that you can really appreciate and love life.
I'd like to know from you - how this image touches / affects / inspires you.
Thanks. Oh yeah - why Mr. Burns - I have great side burns and I love being nasty - just like Mr. Burns in The Simpsons. :D
Sunday, November 18, 2007
the present is all I have...
For the past month I've been meaning to blog about this but not quite ever getting to it as I'm not sure how to put into words without belittling it. But here goes...I have had an amazing insight that I now work with all the time so that I easily let go of any waste/negative and not allowing it to dwell in my mind and then grow into a problem which is what used to happen. I've really realised that the only moment that exists is now - it in fact doesn't matter if you've done something good or something bad in the past - if you are good right now in the present that is the only freedom you have...So whenever something bad happens i.e. if I am careless - if I hold it in my mind and not live in the positivity, the awareness, greatness, potential of this moment - it becomes a burden which not only i carry into every moment but it's also how others will respond to me. Fix the present, be present, be positive, be the change and live enlightened. Like an alchemist that molds and transforms that which is negative into something that is empowering.
I remember reading a saying years ago and that was 'if you truly change in the present noone will remember your past'.
'Change' and the way the world responds to you will change - the world will in fact reflect who you are and what you think and feel.
For me this insight has been like a key - to unlock the present and release the past.
Friday, November 02, 2007
What's my inner filing system like?
I notice that when I do my filing in the office or even if I take myself back to when I did my art degree - my process of working would be one of going from extreme chaos to extreme order...interestingly enough my desktop also looks that way - when it has too many files and it all gets a bit much, I clean it all up and put everything into relevant folders. It does make me think what my inner filing system must be like. What do I save on the desktop of my mind?...in fact I am seeing a thread of benefit in my madness of filing:) that I am selective (when I eventually get to filing) in what I choose to save in the hard drive (of my subconscious). But meanwhile I am sure I hold on to lots of data that is not needed and either should be filed or deleted.Wednesday, October 31, 2007
We are not alone...
We all live our thoroughly modern little lives in our thoroughly modern little silos, blinkered and bunkered with our own fears, hopes, and petty likes and dislikes about ourselves and the world around us. If by some twist of fate we find we are no longer happy to accept our sorry lot, and, stumbling and groping in the murk of our modernity for glimmerings of what seem like knowledge and truth, then we are still left with one further mountain to climb: how are we supposed to really change anything, ourselves or our world, when there is just so much to change, and so little time in which to change it?
Our friend seemed to be showing me a way: don't think you can do it alone; don't even try.
We live in a world that seems, almost by design, to be driving us apart with its every attempt to bring us together: Religion preaches brotherhood, yet practices fratricide; Politics promises unity, yet delivers division; and Science offers answers to questions it clearly does not even understand.
Life seems to constantly provide us with only microscopes that, as one poet wrote, ‘deify one razor blade into a mountain range’; yesterday, our friend seemed to be showing a way to transform life's mountain ranges back into mustard seeds.
If we have spent all our lives thinking it's just oneself that we can rely on, just number one that we have to look after, just me here all alone, then, understandably, we may find it hard to think there is anything outside of our own intellect and effort to which we can turn to achieve anything.
Western philosophy has perhaps put too much store in the gnarly old epithet: "I think, therefore I am", a phrase that sounds less brilliant and more desperate with every passing war, technological disaster, and economic slow-down.
If we stopped thinking about ourselves for just long enough to look at each other properly, then we may be part of the way to getting ourselves out of our solipsistic little holes. After that, what if we could take the best of what we saw in others and make that part of our own make-up? What if we could then pass that on to others too?
Our friend, after spending a few short days in the company of other enlightened and illuminated souls, was able to bring back some of that light and illumination for me, just by being her own enlightened self. Everything seems possible when you are prepared to accept that you are part of something bigger than any mountain range in your way, and that the people around you are lighting the path to your own illumination.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Hole in the World
Before we can enter the arena of love, we need to break down the barriers of race, gender, nationality, culture, religion, ideas, opinions and beliefs. Until we learn to accept one another as human beings, as living beings, as feeling beings and nothing more, can the cloud of fear and sorrow disperse and there'll be hope in the world.
The beauty of it is that it can all start from you and me...
Eagles: Hole in The World (lyrics)
There's a hole in the world tonight.
There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.
There's a hole in the world tonight.
Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow.
They say that anger is just love disappointed.
They say that love is just a state of mind,
but all this fighting over who will be anointed.
Oh how can people be so blind
[Chorus:]
There's a hole in the world tonight.
There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.
There's a hole in the world tonight.
Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow.
Oh they tell me there's a place over yonder,
cool water running through the burning sand,
until we we learn to love one
another we never reach the promise land.
[Chorus:]
There's a hole in the world tonight.
There's a Cloud of fear and sorrow.
There's a hole in the world tonight.
Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow
